💭 Mind Mechanism Of Thought (a.k.a Retrieve)
Last Updated: 2 months ago
This one was kind of led by a conversation with a friend about fears of trusting people, savior complexes and CPTSD emotional flashbacks, as well as my own fears of loss.
Sometimes, when I'm wondering
I wonder more
What is this way we have, to think?
This mind
This mechanism of thought that brings us
Often to the brink
Of despair
And yet
Brings hope?
There are things
I wonder if not to say
And those thoughts I wish
Would just go away
There are people I long
In their pain to embrace
But all of that falls often down on its face
Because sometimes,
It's just about me, me, me
What I think is being kind,
Is my brain not being free
Sometimes, I think
It's not really what they need
It's just the pain in my brain
Playing up around my feet
Though then the brain plays tricks
Because perhaps you are too kind
It tells you no
Don't leave more than yourself behind!
Don't relax, don't take hold
Be tense and take flight!
Or fight
Or freeze
Resist it all!
Do not let love and safety be your own downfall!
But pause
Rest
Breathe
Take a beat.
As your heart slows.
It's not all that
It's not all that
You can get off your feet
Though it's ok to pace
You can also sit down
And rest.
Transcend
Descend
Rescind
Re-send
Unwind
There's more to you than you've left behind
Don't yet leave,
Believe
Retrieve
Reprieve
And remember
That it's ok
To just grieve
It's ok if you can't yet let them leave
And it's ok
If you need time to receive
And I know
That one day
You will believe
I've got me
You've got you
We've got we
It will be
Ok
And even without us
When we're gone
One or both of us
It will be
Ok
In fact
It will always be.
Ok?
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